ดึกสงัด-วิกาลยามนี้แล้วเหตุไฉนท่านยังไม่นอน?

[napman]

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If it's possible, try reading some Buddhism books, I know there are so many good monks that wrote good books that may help you to "Leave it be".In short, it's better to "Accept it if you have tried your best and you still can't change it",

in most cases things happened for reasons. We may not see the reasons now but later we will. I always use this as one of my guidelines in life. And it seems to work for me for all of my life.

Don't be too concern or worry too much about things. I know that it's hard especially if it aims directly to you. But trust me things will work out in its own special ways, you may cry for something now but later you will be able to laugh at what you have cried particularly when you look at things from "Outside in" in stead of "Inside out"

For now have a good sleep and sweet dream because tomorrow's still another working day, so you'd better get some rest my child

Addendum;
There was a song and a singer before your time, his name was Cat Stevens but not anymore.
Your personal situation reminded me one of his song. please listen to it, there are some wisdoms in there that might open your eyes/ears.

Here's some partial lyrics of this song,

I'm being followed by a moon shadow
Moon shadow moon shadow
Leaping and hopping on a moon shadow
Moon shadow moon shadow

And if I ever lost my hands
Lose my plough, lose my land
Oh, if I ever lose my hands- Oh, if...
I wont have to work no more

And if I ever lose my eyes
If my colours all run dry
And if I ever lose my eyes - Oh,
I won't have to cry no more

And if I ever lose my legs
I won't moan and I won't beg
Oh if I ever lose my legs- Oh if...
I won't have to walk no more

And if I ever lose my mouth
All my teeth, north and south
Yes, if I ever lose my mouth- Oh if...